For once, I’m stuck for a title for a post. But alas, ‘The Screaming House’ sounds apt for my rumbling thoughts about to follow.

I was just flicking through a reference/how-to book I own just earlier today and couldn’t help but chuckle as something caught my eye: “They’ll mortgage their homes for a chance to meet with an editor”, “The burning desire to create a literary masterpiece must rank high with other forms of madness.” (in The Everything Guide to Writing a Novel, by Joyce & Jill Lavene).

It must have been the first how-to book I ever bought years ago in my mad quest to become a published author. I don’t believe I’ve looked at the pages of that book for over 6 years. But back then, anything to do with writing, or anything that suggested it would help improve my writing, or help me tackle the scary notion of approaching publishers had me saving my meagre earnings (as a student) and buy any book within my budget that caught my fancy. I used to come home with at least one reference book per week.

Looking back, I can’t help but laugh. How-to books and self-improvement books were on the top on my list and priority back then because I was madly chasing my own tail trying to better myself or my writing. Today, that drive isn’t so much in buying every self-help and guide books, but rather just practicing the craft as much as possible.

However, the Lavenes’ aren’t far off in their assumption that the drive to achieve this one goal is so bad that it does sometimes affect the decisions we make. Frankly speaking, I could be working at a lab, in a white coat and pipetting fluids and solutions, and helping while earning a salary – but I am not, even though I have a degree in Science. Why not? Good question. ‘Cause I am mad, that’s why. I am chasing that dream of recognition in the writing field, which has been my passion since I was in my early adolescence, that perhaps, if I did own a house, I may be very tempted, very tempted indeed, to mortgage it to make something of myself, not so much in the sense of ‘meeting’ an editor, but in the sense that I could finance mass printing, marketing and distribution of my novels and poems etc. Perhaps a reason why most artists and writers are rich in all else but monies – the Universe’s way of making sure we don’t destroy everything that does mean something to us I suppose.  Or else, we would all be tempted to sell the roof over our head for something so intangible as getting published when the guarantee of success is never made.

It certainly is a madness! Alas, we can always dream, and keep going. Who knows what’s around the bend? Believe it or not, this post wasn’t meant to discourage but rather tell you that you are special. Not everyone can do what you do, what we do. Not everyone can live with the uncertainty of everyday like we do. Of slowly going crazy inside because even if you and I wanted to, we cannot forsake the company of our dreams. It seems impossible. And perhaps it is that impossible which motivates us to try that much harder and that much more selflessly.

So go forth and dream. Big things are always made of these, and what is creativity if not a little madness in you and me?

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17 thoughts on “The Screaming House

  1. That’s great, follow your dreams and what makes you happy. Though, I must say, I kind of giggled a bit on the reference/guide book part because you know, in the end, it doesn’t matter what those book says, what matters is how you do it and in what way you want to do it. Sure, they may guide you in some way. But I believe that when it comes to writing, poetry…or any form of art, it all depends on the individual. No one can tell you how to write but yourself. :3

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    1. True! Very true. That’s why I don’t buy those books any more :D. We all have our own styles and stories. How can we write unique if we follow rules? That’s why I wrote my first book the way I did and am thrilled that readers are enjoying the style. Thank you for your words.

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      1. It’s a mad house and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Each day now just strengthens that madness – I blame the blog for giving me an audience I can share with 😛

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      2. Oh yes. The madness just escalates. xD After all, *Quotes you* “what is creativity if not a little madness in you and me?” =p See what I did there!

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      3. Haha. I see, I see. I’ve never been quoted before. I like it :-P.

        And whole heartedly agree. I think our loved ones will agree its what makes us who we are.

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      4. Yes yes, if they really love you and believe in you then they should agree…(Plus to add that you aint doing any ‘bad’ sorta madness) I found your blog through http://en.gravatar.com/yasniger who shares other blog posts. Really like your poems, going through other stuff I can comment/rant on. xD

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      5. Oh please do. I love it when people interact with me. Get to learn things that way. Blogosphere was a bit quiet before this week, and now finally some are leaving comments, which I absolutely love. You’re more than welcome to comment/rant some more.

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      6. Oh, I aint done yet. I am currently at work so, in between I like to read poems and articles. I am so gonna comment some more elsewhere after I get to finish reading. =D

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      7. Hehe. I have to say, your enthusiasm is so infectious, makes me want to bleed out some more pieces 😛
        Last time some one interacted like this I ended up penning two more poems relating to it, ‘There be a shadow’.
        I’m looking forward to this… Mind you, you’ve already given me an idea for a post.

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      8. Oh that is great!! *Happy face!* I love it when I am slightly a reason for even a little inspiration. I always have your blog stalked so, no future posts will go unnoticed. I just have to dig through all the old ones and comment where I think I want to share insight. But so far been loving the poems! *Swooons*

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      9. I’m actually hoping I can get around to releasing a compilation of my poems done time soon. Soon being the key word there. Aside from the earliest 4-5 poems which were older works, all the rest were literally conjured as I posted. So it will be a thrill to get responses in these, ’cause then I may include them in the book.

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